To my dear friend - In your time of need:

You cannot control anyone else's thoughts or behaviour but your own, what other's think of you is borne of their own past experiences and character, only 5% has to do with you, so don't sweat it.

What you think about yourself counts more, but remember that you need to work on your ego, as it is your worst critic............... look at yourself through the eyes of those you love and who love you unconditionally.